So...misbehavior...does that mean I'm not a good mom? My kid hits another at school...does that mean I'm not doing my job? What about if you couple that with the fact that he often seems to be tightly wound in general? Does he need anger management now?! Or am I just a major spazzoid...
What about this...there's some significant family (not immediate, regularly interacting family) dysfunction going on...that will eventually be "noticed" and by eventually I mean pretty soon. What needs to be said? How do you keep the info kid appropriate? How do you not destroy innocence...especially when you have no control over the situation. One thing I know for sure, I always want my kids to know that I was honest with them (to their age level, of course)...but I want that trust to be there. So the internal angst continues....what to tell, what not to tell, when to tell...ugh. The unfortunate part here is that there are NO do-overs. Whatever I go with is what we shall live with...
And for the regular every day stuff...is my perpetually tightly wound-ness rubbing off? Am I spending enough quality time? Am I spending too much quality time? Am I disciplining enough for back talk? Am I hounding all over too much for back talk? Do I have a negative attitude? Wow...being in my brain kind of stinks sometimes.
Being a good mom is tough...that's what I do know. I'm doing my best every day...I know that too. Aside from that though, there is a lot of unknown. Not a fan of that so much...
Honestly, where did this guy go? Things seemed a lot simpler when he was around...and my arms were a lot smaller too. Sigh...
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